Where did the time go?

All of a sudden it is almost 2009. Another year gone by. The past few months have been a whirlwind in the Collins house. The holidays seemed to suck up all of November and December. Emma turned 4 November 20th, there was Thanksgiving where Ellie broke her arm, and all of December was spent doing Christmas activities. I am so spent on Christmas. I am so sick of it that I took my tree down and all decorations yesterday. The only sign of Christmas is all the extra toys cluttering my house. I did get some really nice presents. My mom bought all of my wish list items on skirtsports.com (at one point everything on that website was 60% off so I got a lot more than I normally would have). From my inlaws I got the garmin forerunner 305. I am ready to try it except there is a layer of ice on just about every outside surface around my house.

So, I am all set up for my New Year's resolutions. I want to make 2009 a year of positive change. I still have about 20 pounds to lose before I am at pre-baby weight (keep in mind my "babies" are 4 and almost 3). I got some great tips from Marni Rakes and have been using them on and off. I wish I had more will power over the holidays, but at least I did not gain anything over the last few months!! Rather than focus on weight loss, my resolution is going to focus on a healthier me - more fruits, more veggies, more lean meats. Along with that is working out. With all that has happened with the stock market, trying to save for a down payment on a house, paying over $400 a week for daycare starting in a week, a broken windshield, and a medical bill for a little girl's broken arm there is no room to pay a coach. So, I am going on my own. I am not sure how much I will race this summer (I love training so much more), but I will still do IM.

That brings me to my next point. Resolutions are too long in nature which is why people cannot keep them. So, I have decided to make month resolutions. They may be the same as the prior month, but I think the evaluation is needed.

For the next month I am going to see how I handle training, a new job and my family. When I wasn't working I did not worry if I was gone at night because I saw my kids all day. Luckily I am only working 32 hours a week so if I play my cards right I will not be missing that much time with them.

Here is the plan for January:
1. Healthier eating - get back on Marni's plan.
2. Train how I want to train. I am not feeling the love for triathlon right now. I love spinning, but have no desire to get on my bike. I love the tempos runs I have been doing. I am not loving the swimming. So, my plan is swim very little and replace that with some high intensity weight training. I will not worry about "missing" a workout. I want triathlon to be something fun and something positive to show my girls. I wish I had the competitive spirit on me right now, but stressing out about is the worst thing I can do.
3. Make the time I now have with my kids and husband quality time.